Saturday, July 18, 2009
he jus scolded &Scolded &SCOLDED .
was it smth wrong with me ?
or him ?
or us , both ?
when i swallowed everyth down , i'm not sharing .
when i simply voice out everyth , i'm trying to pick a quarrel .
so what am i suppose to do ?
it's always so hard to find that perfect balance in everyth .
i'm suppose to do the "correct" things ;
i'm suppose to make decisions for myself ;
i'm suppose to apologise ;
i'm suppose to listen to ur views ;
i'm suppose to give opinion ;
i'm suppose to be happy with u ;
i'm suppose to be doing all these that i'm suppose to do ,
BUT i'm fking not doing it .
'cuz i can't be that perfect girl for u .
u simply rode off...
maybe one day , that'll be the way u leave me .
i stood there and obviously cried .
that's so seowrong .
why must u do this to me ?
why must u hurt me this way ?
what have i done to deserve this ?
do u know how it feels for someone to walk off from u ?
as i hold u in my arms ,
the force of the wind seems to make me release my arms .
any time , i could lose u .
this time , i'm really emotional .
&maybe this time , i could really lose u .
they say u really doted on me .
sometimes , it jus gets too overbearing .
&how much iloveyou(s) can i tell u .
"can i have the whole of ur heart ?"
i love you endlessly.
10:41 PM
u merely see one side of me here .
&it seems that everyth here says it all .
can u see how i'm struggling with those wild thoughts i'm harbouring ?
oh wait ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NGRUIMIN !
;D
now , u're as old !
hmm , so ytd (17/7)
roxanne , zhenzhi , victoria , alfreda &ME
we went vivo for harrypotter.
lols.
was slping inside :X
well , there's sentosa outing later !
cherish every single moment yeah (:
it nv felt this real .
now that u're really leaving *sighs*
it's always hard to get over the fact that someone has to leave (to wherever) .
roxanne..........
take many many pictures while we can !
this seems to be one of the longer post among the others uh ?
hais.
we'll jus have to live with it .
i love you endlessly.
1:04 AM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
was it 'cuz that when one's hurt too deeply ,
u become numb to it ?
or am i deluding myself that i really trust him ,
despite him betraying my trust ever so often .
u dont have to see the link .
hais .
how exactly am i suppose to view such a thing ?
D;
i love you endlessly.
8:06 PM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
i've been spending ALOT !
grahs .
to people out there who owes me money , please do something .
it sucks having to go around asking people for money .
i will never fork out the money to buy something first alrdy .
say i'm trying to make things difficult , but sorry .
u people made things difficult for me in the first place .
fking dulan .
i love you endlessly.
9:04 PM
Sunday, July 5, 2009
bored .
tired .
updating blog jus for the sake of it !
i hate school life .
i love you endlessly.
1:34 AM
